I entered a strange period. Suddenly, I had the strong impression that what I witnessed in our world, in society, the blogosphere was a mock soap opera. A soap which has lasted for millennia, even millions of years.
Wars, dominant-dominated ideologies brebisme (sic), oppression, misery, blinders, here the daily human forever. Certainly there are some very nice things happening here, there's always been. Drops in the ocean, though.
Ever get the feeling that today, the Devil has a lot more lawyers than others? I do. It makes me seriously kids, internally, to see the big play the victim and small pass for the wicked. As in the toune.
I looked for meaning through the defense of others, some criticism of the world, through the political space, all that I found only disappointment and frustration.
There are few months, I was thinking the possibility for me to pay no attention to human folly, the crappy it creates. It was not possible. I quickly fell into the trap of everyday evil fucking humanity. Reasonable accommodation, youth Adéquiennes (thank you Chapleau), rotten governments and voters just as rotten. I tried to understand, find, unsuccessfully, a sense of it all.
I could not even write, lack of understanding.
Yesterday, I suggested an exercise to do for a few weeks. Stop looking for meaning, even happen to believe that there is none. To empty of meaning and ahead in life without this constant questioning.
Observer, simply, the ADQ to the illustration of what we've already been there a few million years, the PQ entangled in his quest for power, and entertained the people pulled from all sides that can ask better questions than "the weather tomorrow" or "we condemn a politician for his past corruption while corruption could still all levels of government?", or "who will stay in the Loft ? etc..
Observer and refrain of seeking meaning.
I said recently that since curd was running for the ADQ County Bourget, I would offer my services to the Parti Quebecois to make him fight. Well, I did. I contacted a few people with access to the Head office to inform them of my interest, then I learned that the media would Maka Kotto man of the situation. I'm fine. As I said in my surroundings, politics has always interested me, but I do not want to play the dirty game to enter. I'm not interested enough . I always preferred my integrity before power. That was the update for those who had read my post titled "rejection". Not bitterness, just a feeling of lightness.
So I start looking for nonsense. It's been two days since I dedicated myself seriously, and life is more awfully funny. I feel like an old man sitting on his balcony watching TV today with his old station black and white 60s and is said aloud, it makes no sense. And he laughed.
is a beautiful exercise of clean slate. Which, according to my advisors should enlighten me on the following things for me. Out of my head can not hurt me. It will certainly make interesting posts.
Suggestion Music: Blonde Redhead album "23".
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